Danielle’s Journey

Sorry for my absence everyone, but I just finished a production of Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat at my University up here in Portland.  It was awesome, but really tiring.  I was one of four narrators for the show and that is why I disappeared for a couple of days.  It was a workout this last week…it went well…I am glad it is over.  LOL

I have been having a great couple of days (over the weekend) with my diet and I have really been able to beef up on the green veggies!  It has helped my constipation dissipate and I have  felt my energy leves increase which is great.  I hate feeling tired (although with chronic fatigue it is hard not to) so all the greens has been great.  Lately I have been having a difficult time fitting in all of the fruits I know my body needs…it is just hard to find them up here during this time of the year.  However, I will perservere!

I am excited because next week I am going to be starting a six week long intro to floor and step class!  I have never done step before, but I think I will like it.  When I go to the gym and pass a step class I always feel intrigued and wonder if I could do something like that, so I signed up for one.  Wish me luck!

Thanks once again for being so supportive everyone!  I love you guys!!

I am taking a bold step and putting it all out there, just like Nancy usually does.  Seriously I have been so clogged up lately and bloated.  It cannot be PMS or hormones because I dealt with that a week ago.  I just feel overly full the last couple of days and was wondering if anyone else has experienced this.  I cannot take over the counter laxatives because of a complication it has with a nerve medicine I am currently taking.  Any help would be appreciated!

I had a good week…stayed on my diet…made it to the gym three times and maintained what I have lost.  Feels really good!  ^_^  I hope everyone else has had a great week too!

…So I posted a new picture of me.  LOL  This was me forty pounds ago and this is where I soon want to be again.  If I ever become a famous singer or entertainer this is the picture I want on my first cd cover.  LOL

There is not much else for me to say right now…hmmm…school tomorrow…off work tomorrow…math homework tomorrow…sucks.  CSI MIAMI TONIGHT WHOOT!!  ^_^  Sorry for my randomness…oh yeah…meatloaf is yummy…LOL…and damn the ice cream store for getting love potion #31 today…my weakness…so good though.

…I know…I was doing so well and then I woke up for church this morning with the sniffles!  -_-  I finally caught the grunge which has been going around.  LOL  Last night my boyfriend and I indulged in some hibachi style Japanese food.  I ATE WAY TOO MUCH!  But the good thing which came from this over-indulgence is I realized how much I have started to hate feeling that full.  It feels awful when you realize what feeling stuffed actually feels like.

I maintained through Friday this week, but of course, woke up Saturday and weighed myself just to see if I had lost something and low and behold, lol, one pound gone.  Of course the day after weigh in.  LOL  Just my luck I suppose.

I am starting a jogging challenge with Bobbie tomorrow.  Hopefully I will feel a little better and make it to the gym.  If not I can always walk/jog in the halls of my apartment building.  LOL  GO WILDCATS!!

Wildfires by Alissa Moreno

every time you think you won't make it

and each time you're convinced that you can't take it

picture me in this light

think of me, you can fight

i've been chewed up and spit

i've been big, i've been hit

i've been burned but i have learned
that we survive, we get by
we take the hit and we learn to fight
we collide, but we don’t die
trying to put out wildfires

when you get the feeling that it’s not in you
and all those times remind you of what you can’t do
remember me, i’ve lost and loved
and i am not giving up

though i’ve been torn, i’ve been used
i’ve been fooled, i’ve abused
all my rights to living, but i’m alive

’cause we survive, we get by
we take the hit and we learn to fight
we collide, but we don’t die
trying to put out wildfires

let them come, i’m going to let them take me
let them burn up everything that’s made me
’til the end, i swear, i’m never going to let them break me

though i’ve been crushed, i’ve been killed
i’ve been scared, but god, i will
keep on trudging up this crazy hill

we survive, we get by
we take the hit and we learn to fight
we collide, but we don’t die
trying to put out wildfires

when there’s no doubt how it’s going to turn out
let them burn out, never put out wildfires

…I meant to write a blog yesterday, however, my internet connection was lost in the middle of it.  :(  I will have a more updated blog tomorrow afternoon, however, because I am having high speed installed…lol…yes I am on dial up.  LOL  So sorry for the short update, but I will post more tomorrow!  Just know I have read all blogs and have been doing great!  Congrats to Miss Dagny!  You are a fierce wildcat girl!!

I went to my 3 hour band rehearsal this morning almost begrudgingly, however, I had a great time and knew the music way better then I thought I did.  Sometimes I suppose you just don’t know how well you know something till you are forced to perform it.  I was able to see all kinds of people I have not seen in what feels like ages and just relax a little bit.  I find comfort in the little things, shaking someone’s hand, getting a hug, sitting in the art gallery on campus and enjoying a nice hot cup of Joe with an old friend or acquaintance.  LOL  I am starting to sound old!  LOL

I also pushed past the temptation and said NO to ice cream!  WHOO HOO!!  It was a good day for my diet and an even better day for my workouts!  I went to the gym directly after my rehearsal (it was the only class I had today) and walked/jogged on the treadmill for about an hour before work.  I was sweaty and gross, but it was so worth it.  I will sleep good tonight.  :)  My actual classes tomorrow do not start till 10:30 AM so I am going to hit the gym before I go and hopefully feel energized the rest of the day.

I am going to also buy a new plastic jug for my water that way I do not have so many plastic bottles to waste.  I feel like I could build a house out of the plastic bottles I have stacked up for recycling.  LOL  So a hard and washable plastic water jug is on my budget list for the week!  Today was a good, no, great day and I am looking forward to tomorrow!! I hope everyone else has had a good day too!

So classes begin tomorrow and I am super excited!  I love school because it is like a sanctuary from real life for me.  I am a music major (a vocalist) and I want to one day be a music therapist, but that will come after the bachelor’s and master’s degrees.  O_O  However, I have always found music therapeutic and enjoyable on a personal level, learning everything about it just makes it even more fun.  However, that does not make it easy.  I am going to be in Music History II…scariest class (aside from college algebra)…ever created.  Cue the scary music…lol…but I am sure I can do well.  See as a music major I have to cram 22 credit hours into each semester in order to graduate like a normal human being.  However, I am taking only about 17 this semester to stay healthy.  I am choosing health over how long I have to be in school.  I am excited to also start integrating a normal workout into my days this semester!  ^_^

Thanks for being so real with me everyone…I know this blog is a little random…but I am just writing what I feel tonight!  I love you all because you are so real with me…I feel like I have known you all for years and that is a wonderful feeling!  Never lie to me, true friends stab you in the face…I appreciate that…I love it.  I need tough love and support and I have never found anything but that here!  Thank you ladies!!  WILDCATS FOREVER!!  VIVA LA VIDA!!  ^_^

Classes are starting up again this coming Tuesday for me and I am a little worried about how well I will do!  O_O  I am going to blog everyday and stay on track though I know there is at least one thing I can control and that is losing weight!  I WANT THIS!!  I want to be able to train my little brain to fit exercise into my “way too busy” schedule.  Sometimes I think the only reason I do not make time for the gym is because I “pretend” that I am too busy.  But really is there any such thing as being too busy for myself?  NOPE!  ^_^  I am really serious about making this a lifestyle change!  Look at me!  I have already lost seven pounds!!  GO ME!!  Sorry I needed to have a little party for myself.  LOL

Does anyone have any suggestions on how to fit exercise into an already packed schedule?  How do you guys set aside time for working out??

…I hate “that time of the month”!  Sorry about my weird and motivation lacking blog yesterday!  I was just being a downer on everything but today I had a great day in the diet world and had my butt kicked at the gym.  I learned two things I am out of shape and was not utilizing my time the way I should be while working out!  Both of these things make me want to push myself as hard as I can in the future.  It is not easy finding time to workout while taking college classes and working part time on top of that but I decided today that I need to make time for myself.  I want to use that “me time” to really make my body the best that it can be.

One of my really good friends just had her first baby today and she had some complications because of her weight.  I don’t want to go through that when I decide to get married and have kids someday…I want to be healthy.  I think my eyes opened up a little bit, because I had never experienced something like this before.  No one close to me has ever had a baby or a complication because of weight.  Now I see…and it hit close to home.  No more being out of shape for me!

Also has anyone ever tried mixing Emergen-C powder into there water.  It is vitamin c which you can add to water…just wondering if it works?  Good luck everyone!